Albert Einstein is widely credited with saying “The definition of insanity is doing the same thing over and over again, but expecting different results”.
It's four months into my diet and I have lost 6kgs (1 stone). That is not amazing, but it does deserve a little pat on the back. All in all I am bouncing between feeling 'meh' and feeling super motivated. What I don't get much of anymore though is those days and whole weeks where I overeat and feel out of control. I am starting to remember that I had a life in between obsessing about food - it feels good.
We went to a music festival over Easter weekend. What really frustrated me was that with all the walking and exploring, coupled with my will power of steel as far as food was concerned, and being too busy to eat, I got right down with a 2kg loss over 4 days. When I came back though, it only took me 4 days to put that all back on again! Ak! I could slap myself sometimes.
I've been working on changing habits. After all what I was doing before is not working for me - mentally or physically.
I have been doing Jillian Michaels' 30 Day Shred http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6WSPkxYX2Xc - this has been going really well for me, and people have commented on how my shape is changing. I have lost 2.5cms from my waist, 1.5cms from my butt, and 2cms from my boobs. There are even a few of my smaller clothes that are starting to *just* fit me! Jillian Michaels herself is a fat to thin success story - this is her own before/after photo:
This week I have been focusing on drinking a cup of tea, each time I think I want to nibble. I am one of those people who should have died of thirst many years ago, but seem to be some sort of miracle. I usually have a cup of coffee in the morning, and then nothing else for the rest of the day. It's not a conscious choice, it's just that all drinks have calories, and I am not the biggest fan of water. I don't really like fizzy drinks either, so diet sodas are also out. I guess because of this, I have just gradually drank less and less over the years until I came to this point. Anyways, the tea drinking, although not healthy, seems to stop me from snacking. This is great for now, but I have to say I am feeling all the extra caffeine! I reckon for now I am going to focus on getting the weight off, and then I will worry about swapping the tea for something a little more healthy.
Exciting news is that I am going to South Africa for 4 weeks in July/August, and then the day after I return, I am going to Ibiza for 7 days! I feel really blessed and ultra spoilt. The closer these dates come, the more I am motivated to lose weight. I must just keep that excitement in the front of my mind!
My habits are starting to become healthy again. Most importantly my head space is getting healthier. I feel my body returning to a more womanly shape and less like an ogre. It makes all the difference to my state of mind. Time to make some changes of habit.
The sound track of my life at the moment:
"How 'bout getting off these antibiotics
How 'bout stopping eating when I'm full up
How 'bout them transparent dangling carrots
How 'bout that ever elusive kudos"
"How 'bout me not blaming you for everything
How 'bout me enjoying the moment for once
How 'bout how good it feels to finally forgive you
How 'bout taking you upon your support"
How 'bout stopping eating when I'm full up
How 'bout them transparent dangling carrots
How 'bout that ever elusive kudos"
"How 'bout me not blaming you for everything
How 'bout me enjoying the moment for once
How 'bout how good it feels to finally forgive you
How 'bout taking you upon your support"
I now have only three months left to lose this excess weight - it's getting scary! That is exactly one week per kilogram - EEP! Here goes nothing ...
